ast week was one of the toughest weeks I have ever endured. It all started on Monday after returning home from what I thought was a pretty successful day. Out of the blue, I start feeling this pain in my stomach, at the time I wasn't too worried because it wasn't hindering my day to day activities. Tuesday came around, and I couldn't even get out of bed. Every homeopathic remedy I couldn't think of and tried didn't seem to give me any relief. The only moments I was peaceful were moments when I was asleep.
On Wednesday, I finally broke, I cried in agony all morning. I got a prescribed medication but even that could not ease my pain. For the first time in years and months, I cried. I've always preferred screaming than crying. Sitting in your car or in an open empty space with no one around for a few minutes and screaming the frustrations out of your lungs is the most exhilarating feeling in the world. This time around, I couldn't gather enough strength to even do that. I sat there with hot tears running down my face wondering if anyone could hear me, disappointed and angry at myself "what had i done to deserve this?"
hursday, I accepted defeat. All I could do was just suffer through whatever it is my body was going through. I was all cried out, and needed a pick me up. Before I knew it Friday came along, better than Thursday, but I still wasn't feeling like myself.
Saturday is when things made a turn for the better, I woke up in a little bit of pain but nothing too unbearable like the previous days. I got my sanity back, and kind of reflected on the week. I found it interesting how I was blaming myself for things I cannot control. I had convinced myself that there was something I did to deserve this. This is something I have yet to understand about the human psyche, is this feeling/mindset something that is innate -to blame ourselves for things that happen to us that we cannot control- or is it learned, and am I the only one that experiences this?
G E T T H E L O O K
But all's well that ends well.
On a lighter note, I got a lot of goodies that I had order which helped lift my spirit when I was down. This & Other Stories blouse was one of the beautiful pieces that I had been anxiously waiting for and it is #summergoals.
It's mid July, which means we're basically at the peak of summer season. The temperature are at their peaking points as well, medleying between 98 degrees* wow, now I'm thinking about 98 degrees the band* to 102 degrees.
This summer blouse is a dream especially in this heat! It's super light and the lace detail on the sleeves allows for air circulation to keep you cool, hands down the best summer investment. Also it's in this beautiful lavender/lilac purple shade which honestly makes it so irresistible.